i was sick during the weekend. I think its because i finally went partying on thursday after a long long time, and my body wasn’t used to it. I’m having asthma now …also perhaps due to ciggies. Slight fever too. 
today is not a good day. I have a lot of things in my head. a lot of things from a lot of pple. Its like a grey strom in my head but no silver lining yet.
monday blues.
-sabs-
Yesterday night was a fun one. Met up with the whole group and headed to Onyx, but in the end, there was just me, Grid and three guy friends. It was Grid’s birthday, so yes, shots all around, endless drinks, thanks to endless coupons….shook my booty on the dancefloor for quite a bit…i had a lot of fun in a long long time. It was good.
Woke up hungover but managed to get to work. Miracle. But i should admire Grid more. She was in the office at like 10 am? i think….
Sent an sms to Daddy but no reply. Just wanted to know how they were. Still no reply yet. Hmmm.
I am so bored,
later,
sabs
was walking home earlier and the auntie who literally "lives" under my block said
" girl ah, you like pink ah. everytime i see you, you sure wear red or pink one!"
i was quite surprised that this lady actually noticed what i wear everyday. Seems like i’ve underestimated her abilities. She’s old, for one…like freaking 70 but obviously she still has very good eyesight…plus, she must be very observant.
(its either all that or i seriously have too much pink in my wardrobe, which i think so too!)
So anyway, i laughed and told her, pink is my fav color. Just like red, and purple, and orange and black and white and everything else. She laughed too. We were just laughing and smiling at each other…for a minute. Then after that, i suddenly felt awkward so i waved a byebye.
As i was walking upstairs, i started feeling very bad that i didn’t hold a longer conversation with her. It occured to me that she might be this old lady who sat under my block everyday, feeling bored and perhaps waiting for someone to initiate a conversation. I felt kinda bad for a mmt. But i didn’t do anything about it after. Guess part of me was thinking…oh, she’ll be fine, she sits there everyday anyway, and the other part wanted me to just sit down with her and talk to her more.
Hmmm.
On another note, it is my friend Ingrid’s birthday today….and tonight we shall all get drunk over endless shots of vodka and illusion. Next week would be Ain’s birthday bash too. Another night of drinks. Come to think of it, its been a while since i so-called "partied". So i guess the next couple of days would make up for all that. Just to have fun.
But first, i gotta head to work.
Sabs
woke up three hours ago, to the sounds of some karanguni man tooting his horn right outside my window. Cursed for a bit cos i was in deep sleep just seconds ago, tried to hibernate again but couldn’t.
So i just finished cleaning the house. It is amazing how much dust can accumulate in the living room after just one day! hmph. Swept floor and mopped everything. Did the dishes. Rearranged the furniture just a bit.
Have an appointment with doctor later in the day after 12. Wish me luck guys, that i am ok. its just a full body check up, mainly to check my heart too. I hope i am ok.
Just checking email and replied to new boss. Had nice conversation with Programme Director last night at freaking 1 am. God, this is tough. Can u imagine if i have to talk to my boss or something, i gotta wait till like its 9 or 10 pm, so that it would be 9 or 10 am there in the states. Urgh, super mafan!
Okay i got to get back to work and fill up some silly forms.
-sabs-
it’s almost midnight right now….i wish my house was quiet. The bad thing about living together with your parents and three other siblings, is that the house will never be quiet. Even if it is, even when no one is talking, the music from a stereo, or even the tv, would be blasting away.
But of course, what would i do without these pple. They’re the only ones i have in Singapore.
My work day was alright. It was my cook’s last day and i tried so hard not to cry. He just said goodbye, smiled at me wearily and walked out. I wanted to hug him but i couldn’t. I knew if i did, my eyes would just start tearing and wouldn’t stop. you guys know what a cry baby i am. but later he called me and i he just said thank you, and that it was a pleasure working with me. I just replied solemnly that i would be okay and that it was great having him around. He was my fatherly figure at work.
Got home, showered and thought about hoe much change i gotta put up with within the next two weeks. New job, new environment. Basialy, i would be alone this time. No more laughs at Cellar Door, no more silly situations to look forward to. No more lattes or cappucinos to make, no more opening of wine bottles. Damn. I’m going to give that all up to be stuck in a lonely studio at midnight. Just me, the cold and music. I’m trying to tell myself that this is my big break - what i’ve always wanted to do, and now i’ve got it.
I just wish i won’t be alone.
on much happier note. Pay day is coming! I don’t earn much but the fact that i know i have money in my pocket makes me happy. Regret giving parents huge sum this month. Almost half of what i got. Won’t do it again. 
Ok time to go. Till the next update.
sabs
Been one hell of a morning. My heart began to hurt just now, as i snuggled up in bed. It was like 4 plus in the morning and no matter how i tossed and turned, it was a slow pain that came and went. Plus my whole head was dizzy. I get this sometimes, but no worries…the last time i went for a body check up was two months ago and i was declared safe from every single disease that you can name in the dictionary.
But of course, it could also mean time for anotehr check up.
Sent my parents off again this morning. They’re off to malaysia for another two weeks.and coming back two Thursdays from now. Mum gave me a mighty big hug and wet kiss. I gave her one back. Didn’t manage to kiss my Dad on the cheek, the man was busy smsing ( yes, he finally learned!!) so i just took his hand and salaamed him instead. He looked happy just now before he drove off. Well, obviously he doesn’t have to put up with his three silly daughters and moody son once he’s back in his old town of Negri Sembilan.
On another thought, I am going broke. faster than usual this month. Too many late nights, too many late trips on the taxi, too much to drink and definitely too much shopping. This month i bought three different kinds of perfumed shower foam and yadda yadda….i still ahve a couple more things to buy…mainly this pair of shoes i saw at Charles & Keith…Sonia knows what I’m talking about….a top i saw in Holland Village, and also more make up. Mine broke. Accidentally sat on it, then it nicely fell off my bed.
Okay its around 12 noon now…in 5 mins. Things to do today. Laundry….dirty dishes, clean up my CDs…again! I tell you i have a thousand and one CDs and it drives me nuts. Will attempt to repair the computer with whatever skills i have ( i reckon not much), and also I have ironing to do!
Talk to you guys later!
sabs
one of my regulars from work came by today and brought with him the cutest baby boys! He had curly locks around his tiny little ears, and he was just born like ten days ago, but he was so hugeeee!
but he was so cute. I would have carried him if my hands were not stained with wine at that moment. i love little kids!
Oh and work today was far from ordinary. jenny came by and u know what a bundle of nerves i can be. Plus found out some stupid shit been going on and i didn’t like that at all. Smoked ciggies due to stress…sigh must quit soon. Went smoke free the entire day yesterday. Was proud for at least 12 hours after.
also feeling sick. Almost cried, i puked a bit and felt so sick later in the evening. PMS ALERTTTTT!!!!
Stay away from me for the whole of next week.
love ya’ll,
Sabrina
It’s been a crazy couple of weeks. I’ve been at work more than anything else, partying at Onyx on Thursdays, making new friends and trying to make myself a better person. Lots of things going on.
Dad’s been asking me to go overseas to study. He asked me if i wanted to study hospitality since i loved being around food and wine. hahaha. just kidding. Its just that Dad thinks i should get my degree…the whole thing about how pple have degrees nowadays as basic qualifications gets to him, and obviously he doesn’t want his dearest daughter to fall back. It was nice of him to bring up the idea, until we started talking about money issues. Sigh.
Its raining now and all i can think about it my bed. And someone’s cd that i borrowed yesterday. i just wanna snuggle up and hibernate like those bears i watch on Discovery. hahaha.
okay gtg. pillows and hot chocolate are calling.
