me and my stories.

i don’t want to know. Seriously.

And i don’t want you to know that i’ve been viewing your profile either. Any of you. Oh no, I’m going to get caught. Hahaha. Damn.

Anyway,

Today was a good day. I slept and woke up late. hehehe.

let’s see what i’ve been up to.

cleaned the house, fell asleep again, went to town, got a present from someone special, got wet from the rain, went window-shopping, talked to ex bf, met elza, went to lucky plaza to eat, the bus to chinatown, met vel, met elza’s friend, walked to china square , then got coffee, then cab to work.

and here i am in studios.

tonight i am suppose to join a friend to go clubbing. he just broke up with his other half and decided to "switch scenes" just for tonight. The place might be double o. I am soooo lazy to go but i cannot bear to leave my dear friend alone. I am so nice, aren’t i. Actually it’s also because he spent the whole entire day bugging me to go. sigh.

I’m just afraid i won’t be able to wake up in time for work tomoro.

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I’m so sleepy. I need a hug. I just wanna lie in bed and stare at the ceiling. I’m cold too. I’m wearing a sweater now, but I’m also wearing a short skirt. So my legs are freezing.

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i better get back to work.

-sabs-

am listening to sounds of U2 now. I love this song. Sigh.

a good old pal just asked me a wierd question just now.

"Who do you want to marry?"

you know something, i didn’t know she was asking more along the lines of personality, as in..what kind fo person, etc etc. I answered her a long list of names instead.

1. JOHN TRAVOLTA!

2. JOHN TRAVOLTA!

3.JOHN TRAVOLTA!

haha. obviously i know this guy is like married for yonks and living a great life with his family. i don’t care. I think he is cute. and i want to marry the john travolta in Grease. The one with the sexy hips and oily hair. the one with the cool car and attitude. The one with the black jacket.

sigh. i love men who just age gracefully and look better as they age! John Travolta is MINE! even my mum thinks he is cute okay.

he he he.

moving on, i have three bottles of wine with me now at work. All the leftovers from yesterday’s tasting. Maybe later i will have an ice wine party. hehe. Someone is going to get very lucky tonight.

I’m talking about myself, obviously. ahem.

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can’t believe i’m saying this but i miss eating my mum’s cooking. I had salmon for dinner. teriyaki salmon. it was good but i was craving for assam pedas. I had salmon cos its still…fish. I bet you don’t get me. but nvm.

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oh one more thing. i realised today that you really cannot run from your past. I’m trying to run far far away, but its bringing me down. Its like digging a hole to get out, but digging the wrong way. digging a deeper hole. wth am i talking about. digging and holes.

sorry my mind is screwd up today.

and i haven’t even started on the wine yet.

-sabs-

thank you fellow 987 fan of mine, jay-to-e-leong. Hehe…. People, read his blog okay, and admire his picture, he’s such a sweet boyyyyyyyy. May you find your pretty malay gf soon.

http://jay-to-e-leong.blogs.friendster.com/

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Anyway,

here are sum facts about sabrina

wallet some cards - POSB and Ezlink, cash, taxi receipts, love notes ( yeah right), namecards from work, earrings, a ring, condom (kidding again. cannot keep in wallets ya know!) slip of paper with Rudel and Billy’s contact numbers. These two guys are my bosses.

favourite shoes my heels la. The higher, the more painful to wear, the better? haha, i love slippers too.

clothes i cant live without pink tops, black tops, 3/4 pants, tube tops, spaghetti straps, skirts and my shorts.

something you’re looking forward to in the upcoming months nothing much honestly. I don’t think my life will change much or be any more exciting than it already is.

something that you are extremely afraid of cockroaches. losing someone very dear to me, like my friends and family.

believe in forgiveness I’m good at forgiving people but i will never forget. It will be stuck in some corner of my head.

favorite foods Anything hot and spicy, anything Thai, SUSHI! mum’s cooking.

my father thinks i am  lazy and stubborn and everyting a girl shouldn’t be.

my mother thinks i am lazy and stubborn and everything a girl shouldn’t be.

everybody thinks i am  crazy? I don’t know. How am i suppose to know what you think of me.

what makes me happy being around people who truly appreciate me and love to have fun. You can poke fun at me, or anything, i don’t care. Cos when you laugh, I’ll laugh with you.

upsets me people who break my trust and lie to me, especially if i have to find out the hard way. Those of you who take things, for granted ALL THE FREAKING TIME.  And those who are insensitive.

what you cook anything, but i cannot promise you that it tastes good. I like to bake actually. the usual brownies and choc chip cookies.

you have a secret you have not shared yes. which i don’t intend to share.

song you’re listening to now the pixies - here comes your man.

person you’ve last called sonia

person that last called you todd

person u last sms todd

TV show you last watched channelnewsasia

thinkin about what time i end work tomorrow.

you drink water and orange juice

you like roller coasters hehehe, i love them! But i’m scared of them at the same time.

ever been in love yes

ever been kissed  where? hehe, i mean, yes.

ever been arrested nope.

makes you laugh the most lotsa people really. Todd, Sonia, people at work, funny comics liike Baby Blues, Garfield, the show Whose Line Is It Anyway

last time you did something interesting i have been up to a lot of interesting things lately.

last time you were totally happy just a few hours ago. i blame it ENTIRELY on the wine.

whats your favourite colour it’s not pink okay! it’s turquoise.

what’re you planning to do tomorrow i have to work. Cellar Door, 11.30 till late, then radio 9 pm to midnight.

this morning i was getting ready for work at TCD when an Indian fella appeared out of nowhere  right in my face.

He said " You have a very funny face."

I was like…what the hell is this guy doing in my face and telling me that. he also had scary eyes. The worst thing was that he kept inching closer and closer in my face and saying the same line over and over again.

I told him, sorry, but i was busy, if he was going to sell me something.

And then he told me about himself. he was a fortune-teller. Someone who could tell me how i was going to end up, at the age of 53, or something along the lines of that.

I was like…oh okay, i don’t want to know anyway. Thanks very much.

And this guy wasn’t satisfied. He kept coming closer and saying, "you have a very funny face."

So i just stayed in my restaurant until he decided he wasn’t going to get me to sit down next to him, and i got back to work after he was gone.

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on anotehr note. I had a wine tasting. Had been drinking some wine way before, so the wine tasting made me a little bit more tipsy. Shawn’s friends were there, and i saw Meghan, my Canadian girl! I missed her so much! She said i lost weight too. happy happy! But yeah, seeing Meghan was great. I miss working with her, and just being around someone so lovely. Meghan is one of those super compassionate girls, who’s sincere, and honest and everything nice. She’s doing so great in Auckland, NZ, and I’m glad she and her Ted are kinda doing ok too. I hope i’ll get to hang out with her soon.

The wine tasting was great. I didn’t drink anything from the ones opened, in fact all i kept having were the ice wines and port wines and whatever dessert wines we had stock off in the fridge. The people from Wine and Dine mag had all 28 bottles for tasting earlier in the afternnon, and i had unnoficially helped them to taste the wines too. hahahaa!The wine tasting was a success, thankfully. Reuben and I joked a lot. Was talking with Nicole too about silly things. Todd was there too, and he stayed a bit too long and last he told me, he was walking in zig zag lines down Adam Rd. Tsk Tsk Tsk. Thank goodness our wine tastings are only once a month. Hahahhaa! Kidding yeah. he he.

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Should i head to MoMo tonight? I have not been there and honestly i don’t wanna go, but i feel bad letting Sonia go alone. Hmmm.

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I have to go. Work beckons.

-sabs-

i spent the whole afternoon listening to John Legend today. Razak’s Cd. Work at TCD was alright except for this two customers who made me upset for a while. Other than that i had a great time.

I had a stalker in the NTUC supermarket just now. He was an Indian worker. I think it would be more polite for me to call him him that. Anyway i was checking out some stuff at the bakery section - ingredients for my chocolate chip cookies. Some of you know, yes i always bake chocolate chip cookies. Anyway, he was with one of those bright green baskets in his hands and he actually standing at the end of the aisle. I could tell he was looking at me, cos he had this huge pair of eyes, which quite obviously contrasted with his skin. I got a bit freaked out, cos this guy was quite big, in terms of size…not fat  just..big sized and he kind of blocked that end of the aisle.

if you’ve been to coronation plaza NTUC, you would know, how tiny those silly aisles are.

Moving on, i decided to move to the other end of the while, to just you know, get away from this scary dude. So i quickly made this quick exit from the other end and turned into the next aisle.

And there he was! Standing right in the middle of the aisle this time, and staring at me with those huge huge eyes!

So i pretended to be interested in something that was behind in, i pushed myself past him ( i said "excuse me") and then i made a quick exit from the end and walked down a couple of aisles.

A few minutes later, i was standing in the bread section, admiring some Pandan loaf thing and just as i turned, guess who i saw.

MR HUGE SCARY EYES!

(i realise at this point some of you might think i am staring at my own reflection, I am obviously not. MR HUGE SCARY EYES this time, was right behind me, and his shadow covered me entirely. I freaked out, walked out of the NTUC.

Mr HUGE SCARY EYES followed. and this time, he had some other scrawny fellas with him, still with their construction hats on. But you know what, when i turned around to see if they were coming behind me still, i saw all of them smiling.

So i quickly hailed a taxi. And soon after those wierdos were out of sight.

So that’s the story of my stalker. i’m hoping i don’t see him tomorrow, since i will be at TCD tomorrow. I don’t understand why sometimes these indian workers will just stare at me like a piece of meat, and continue staring even if i have walked past them! Like a hundred freaking metres away! I would still be able to sense their eyes on me. It makes me feel so uncomfortable sometimes.

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On another note. I need a massage. Someone pls rub my neck and shoulders for me. They’re sore.

-sabs-

eit’s what.. 26th of sept?

few more days to some some money in my pocket. Few more days to fasting month. few mor days before mum and dad comes back.

the weekend was good. yesterday was spent working at TCD. Busy as hell, my feet hurt by 2 pm. But it was good. Me, Raz and Jai. The regular customers. It’s always nice to see people you know. The thing about working in service line is that sometimes, it doesn’t feel like work, even though i’m sending out food and taking orders. Thats also because when u know your customers, you’ll end up talking and laughing away.

It’s those extremely irritating and picky ones that just test your patience over and over again and pull you down.

After work was fun too. had dinner at Fish&Co. Todd and I had a voucher for hundred bucks. Ate a lot, laughed even more. It must have been the alcoholic drinks i tell you. We barely drank one third of it and somewhere along the dinner, we started laughing.  Up till now, i can’t recall what it was that made you laugh so hard. I hope it’s not me though.

But yeah dinner was great and i came out smelling like a fish afterwards. Had BJ for dessert…BEN AND JERRY’s i mean. hahaa. Yum yum.

And today is Monday. Woke up three times today to do some laundry and clean up. Took nap and after this i’m going to be cleaning up the house again. It’s always very dusty here. If i ever want to buy a house, i won’t get one that’s right beside a busy road. I’ll have to keep cleaning all day!

Oh, and i got a call from an old old friend! She is back in Singapore, after like 6 years in Aussie? We kept contact through email and I guess I’ll be seeing her sometime soon just to catch up.

happy happy.

-sabs-

as is, i am at home.

came back earlier at 7 plus after an afternoon at sonia’s. Was by the pool frolicking around in a bikini. Haha, kidding. I was, yes, by the pool but obviously not looking as hot as i imagined. Just floated around ( i can’t swim well) and acted like some water baby for an hour or two. Attempted to get a tan - not that i needed it though.

am suppose to be heading out tonight. To a gay bar. Happy.

Should i stay (home) or should i go?

Just cooked dinner. Something small and simple for myself. Oh look, someone just walked through the door. My wonderful sister. She probably thought i would be out right now. Out shopping or making eyes with some guy? Hehehe. There is one person in my head i don’t mind making eyes with right now. In fact i would be very busy with him if he was right beside me.

Okay. Moving on.

There is a pasar malam near my house and i can smell the Ramly burger from here.The last time i went JB, i didn’t grab any for myself. Mainly because i was still full, but now it seems that the Ramly burger is closer than ever imagined. Ten mins away from my door step? Yum yum.

Talked to ex bf today. He was at work. Again. Sometimes i wish he didn’t have to work so hard. I asked him when he would be quitting? Or something along the lines. He laughed. Enough said. If there is one thing i can admire, its his passion. Passion to save lives and make them feel better even after they’ve lost an arm. I must admit he’s pretty good at making people feel better about themselves. In a way, he was indirectly responsible for making me into what i am now. That’s the one thing i will always appreciate him for.

Just checked account balances. NOT ENOUGH MONEYYYYYYYYYY. then again, i’m living in Singapore. that’s always a problem. Bills Bills Bills. And Shopping. And eating. Then more bills. Credit. M1. Internet. Insurance.

ok time to go.

-sabs-

the weekend is here. I am at work, yeah but as usual, my head hits weekend mode once its Friday.

i did a lot of things today. went to market and spent million dollars on groceries. Some old cheeky malay uncle asked me if i was married cos i looked too young to be married. I tried my best to wriggle myself out of the conversation because he was following me around for a bit, but it was kind of hard because of all the plastic bags i had in my hands. But thankfully, he went off.

cooked some lunch for myself only to realise that my sister and brother would be home in the afternoon. Did some laundry. Cleaned my room for a bit, yes the one hit by Hurricane Sabrina. haha. Tried to clear my Cds again but there was not much point in doing so cos later i was digging around for my old Shed Seven album. Didn’t find it.

Pampered myself for a bit. Smoothed lotion and did all the girly stuff i doubt u wanna hear about. Then took a short nap, only to find out i had overslept. Big sis was cooking some stuff in the kitchen. I was still lethargic so i laid on my bed, folded my clothes, put them away and re-read Tony Parsons for the millionth time. I swear, i better put a new book next to my bed or else i’ll be able to memorise every single word of it by the end of the month.

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Sorry about my previous blog. When u smsed me, i was shocked for a moment at how misleading it was…whatever i had wrote. I deleted the whole part anyway. Not that it would make you feel any better, i know. But i guess it reminds me that i should take extra care in wording my sentences next time.

- sabs-

i was laughing at a comment that my ex bf typed out for my previous entry. Its not exactly funny but i’m not surprised you said that the word "ex boy" sounds a bit MINAH? Oh c’mon just say it. After all, remember how you used to ask me what my race on my IC says? You used to say it says Malay, so that means …..? So anyway, what shall i call you from now? Ex honeybuns? Ex baby boy? Hahaha.

God, i’m getting a bit more sadder by the day, having to laugh at my own self sometimes. Oh what the hell, always take life with a pinch of salt.

Last night i had a bad bad dream. In fact, i almost couldn’t wake up. Did someone cast a spell on me? Cos i have been having bad dreams whole week.

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Today is WorldSpace day. Apparently i have a dinner at Equinox this evening..and a suite at Westin to party afterwards. All paid for. How exciting. getting drunk with colleagues whom i barely see, since i work the night shift. Sigh, the party was supposed to be in Phuket. It could have even been in Washington! Can u imagine? Gg for company dinner/party in another country? Damn. No such luck this year. perhaps next year, if I’m still in their good books.

-sabs-

its a thursday. one more day to the weekend.

just finished going to some jacuzzi/pool/bath thing with LY and Sonia. It was great. I hadn’t squeezed myself into a bathing suit for the longest time. And this suit wasn’t even mine. LY had planned to study and i had planned to bum but then the thought of getting your "fats steamed/melt away" seemed too exciting. Yeah right. I wish there was such a technology.

I am hungry now.

Oh, and guessed what. The ex boy smsed asking if i used to date a fireman? Or gone out with one? I don’t recall going out with a fireman or anyone of the sort. Maybe its an old friend who has decided to become a fireman. Hmm, anyway, the answer is still no.

On another note, WS invited me to dinner tomorrow night at Equinox. Feel like going but i got to leave by 8.15 which would be quite silly. It starts at seven, but you know, people are bound to be late.

ok i gtg.

-sabs-