me and my stories.

yesterday was a trip to town…. first it was arab street and then it was bugis and finally funan. In a matter of like….four hours? I met a whole lot of people.

late lunch at samar cafe and bumped into zul, fendi and yana. Talked a while only before had to go to funan to get bag. walked down through bugis and headed to library to use toilet…met rudi and gf on way down escalators…and then while making way out, bumped into radhiah, looking all svelte now. Her eyes still pretty big, am sure she uses them to her advantage on her flights..hehe! Then walked down Stamford house and went into Baylene. Talked to Baylene herself for a while, admired her shop. Was suppose to head to orchard to go to Kiehl’s and also check out Borders, but no time.

Today was one hell of a day. 7 am saw me standing at the side of Golden Mile waving byebye and then it was home. Bought some breakfast for whole family so they quite happy. Then slept till 12 and had to zap myself to TCD after a very alarming phonecall from Jenny. Left TCd at 2 and then head back home to change into white tee and jeans and then back to Choupinette for their catering. Catering was awesome except for a few hiccups. I swear, now i know where all our taxes and money are going to…bigshots who live at bukit timah? I don;t know really but this guy’s house was the bomb and the biggest one i had ever seen.

Anyway, manage to grab half bottle of French Riesling and left it at TCD….still have anotehr bottle of PB Sauv/Sem sitting in someone else’s fridge. And one bottle of JC  Cab Sauv/Merlot lying around.

But thats besides the point.

Tomoro will be another crazy day at work? I have so many things planned this month and my schedule is like packed with all sorts of crap. And best thing my new organiser is super useless cos it doens’t have this month in it…the planner starts with Jan 2006. Sigh. I’m stuck with leaving notes in my handphone, which i conveniently put on silent mode, or ignore when it comes to very impt msgs.

Oh well, my feet feel dead now. Time to run off to bed.

-sabs-

i woke up today at eleven plus to an empty house. It was nice. It was all quiet and i could jump around naked and do silly things and no one would be there to stop me. So anyway i cleaned my room again, looked through my entire cd collection (again), looked at old photos of the nice decent girl i used to be and also reaaranged my soft toys. I don’t have that many but it was ncie to take them down, give them a good shake to watch the dust particles fly out and then put them back into their red baskets.

shortlived. parents just stepped in. they went out for lunch apparently.

weekend was alright. i had a lot of things to do and for some parts i had fun and some parts i didn’t., I think this month i spent a bomb. Time to gather all the old stuff and sell them at a flea market or something.

and i have a lot of things on my mind today.

-sabs-

you know how sometimes we turn to people to have them hear our problems, but then they do the whole thing of giving you a slap back in your face and use words that kill? It’s very very annoying.

Today i did just that. I told someone what problems i was facing and yes this person obviously said something nice, but with the message came those sharp words as well. It pissed me off entirely because in one way, yes i do want you to listen to me whine and all, but also, i don’t want to hear you nag at me or bite my head off with whatever practical advice u have to give. All i want is for me to talk and for you to shut up. Or just be nice about it.

Its very very annoying that some people in my family have certain wishes that they want me to fulfill. I’m not selfish enough to say that its my life and i don’t wanna give a damn anymore, because honestly that wouldn’t have been very appreciative. i don’t want to be the one that turns away from them just because of what i do, or what i enjoy doing.  but sometimes its very very hard when your family is religious, when they all think that signing your life away to the govt is the best thing in the world and doing anything besides being a govt servant is loserly. Then there’s all the money issues and stuff.  Its very very pathetic that some people have to think this way, but i take it as, some people don’t understand how i want to live my life or how i plan to.

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Today doesn’t seem like a good day. heard a piece of bad news from someone i cared about and that just brought me down a bit. the weather doens’t seem better, and my mum has been nagging me the whole entire day. Thankfully my room is cleaner now….i vented my frustration on the broom this morning. and the mop, and the wash cloths and the laundry.

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okay well otehr than that, its gg to be a party weekend. I have already told my mum about saturday and sunday and i know for sure she has not registered the fact that i would not be coming home at all that very night. well, i’m gg to have losta fun this weekend, hopefully it won’t burn a hole in my pocket.

-sabs-

today was a beautiful sunday…it wasn’t too hot, it didn’t rain as much….in fact the skies were so pretty…

the weekend ended with a trip to bugis and sakae sushi. I read a small booklet in Kinokuniya on " how to make your money work for you in 2006" which was quite funny. It had a very serious title but it was one of those books that come up with the silliest ideas on how to make you save money.  I guess that’s one of my biggest plans for this new year… save money. lots of it.

mum and dad finally coming home from malaysia tomorrow. i haven’t seen my parents for a month..and even though i do miss them, I’m kind of accustomed to not having them around…as in ..live in the same house. I will have a lot of explaining to do to them tomorrow, once they return….

marie just called from bangkok. That’s my sister’s friend who called. And my sister who was right next to her, didn’t even want to talk to me. Hmph. busy with thai men i suppose.

okay i gtg

-sabs-

i can’t sleep.

i was in town earlier in the evening and it was all ok until the wind almost blew me off my chair. It also started to rain and that kinda dampened my mood.

I’m quite thankful in a way i didn’t end up outside at Zouk tonight. I’m so tired of going out to that place…haha, and also i guess I’m worried about my cash flow. As is, I’m spending as though  get paid million bucks every single day. Oh how i wish.

It’s so damn cold. All i wanna do now is snuggle up in my bed and fall asleep. Regret the coffee. I’m so awake now i swear.

Worst thing is my whole house is empty and i feel so alone.

-sabs-