me and my stories.

Okay so today marks the new year of the dog… Happy new year to everyone! My mum, i just realised is baking a cake, solely because our wonderful neighbours have given us a whole two bags full of chocs and sweets and also the oranges. She’s going to be giving them half of the pound cake…. yummy.

Okay so my sister is in an amazingly horrible mood. that’s what happens when some silly people in her dept have decided to put some tests or exams or any form of stressful projects right after the CNY holidays. poor thing.

yesterday

we had great fun at sentosa yesterday. The plan was to go for a bike ride just around the island and spend some time by the beach. Obviously, we got distracted…..SENTOSA LUGE!!

oh my god this new ride is soooo much fun. I find the whole chair lift thing quite scary cos of the height and the obvious fact that we don’t really have a belt on for safety. then again, maybe for me its just the height. I had a picture taken with the helmet on and my face all stressed up. So funny.

After the whole 10 mins of breathtaking scenery,  we sat in one the luge thingies and zoomed down the hill. At first i went a bit slow…since it was the first time for me but before long, i was speedingggggggggggg and it was sooo much fun. Obviously todd was faster than me, i don’t know why i just couldn’t catch up with him. he did the corners like a pro. I was like laughing all the way…it was SO FUN. We decided to go do the ride a second time just for the hell of it.

MUST GO THERE AGAIN SOMETIME! he he he. i likeeeeee.

anyway, we had a nice walk along the beach later..passed lots of places, and even KM8. Climbed rocks and looked for quiet spots to sit and enjoy the sunset. It was nice. the weather was cool..the skies, a whole myriad of colours. I sure wish i ahd a camera on me… the whole peacefulness, and the sound of the waves lapping against the shore….:) the air smelled great and you could virtually taste the sea each time you inhaled. I sure do wanna live by the beach some day.

Much later after the sunset, we walked back…had pizza for dinner later, at the only cafe which was open in Harbourfront and then headed back home to the city. My cough and cold, which completely disappeared throughout the three hours i was in Sentosa, came back, much to my dismay. I spent the whole of the last night coughing up a storm.

today

today was a quiet day. not much excitement but definitely emotionally overwhelming at one point. sat on the couch and watched constant gardener and cried my eyeballs out.

the movie amazes me. It certainly is very sad to watch the skinny african kids smile and wave their bony fingers at the camera. I cried so much watching how much suffering these people had to go through. It’s one of those movies that just make you feel guilty about even enjoying the ben and jerry’s ice cream you had bought with that twelve dollars in your pocket. Certainly made me think on how much money i was wasting buying all sorts of nonsense with my pay…and the money could have easily helped feed a village of kids.

what made me think though was how much truth there was to the movie. You know what they say…how there would be exaggeration in some scenes here and there…how all these aid agencies are actually really helping the poor. I wouldn’t know really until i read the papers and see a smiling photograph of an african american holding up a bucket of rations or shaking hands with someone from the union. Even then, are we suppose to believe all those photos, all those articles from journalists who sometimes merely write what we would want to know and hear?

sigh. ok no more serious movies for me. I cry easily over anything honestly. Anything to do with the human spirit and strenth…tales of destruction, tales of survival… sit me down to one of those documentaries on animals playing with each other and I’ll cry at the very thought of Mother Nature. I’m crazy. Over-emotional. 

Anyway, everything aside, i just wanna say happy new year again to those who celebrate. I hope this year would be a wonderful year for us all. Full of peace hopefully, full of good health and prosperity. Okay i sound like a greeting card. Best wishes to all. Woof woof.

-sabs- 

the past few days have been quite interesting. For one, I’ve been working at TCD and as usual, am highly amused by the behaviour of expat wives. incessant chatter mostly, ranging from topics of weekend holidays to beautiful bracelets and "where did you get that handbag" questions. It’s very interesting to see ( or in this case, hear) how some people lead their lives and think its perfectly fine to pay for 2 cups of coffee ( which costs 9.80, mind you) with an American Express card.

I had a very amazing customer two days ago who thought that the service i had given him was far from satisfactory. It annoyed me for a bit how some people expect me to be at their beck and call, while i am working alone and the entire restaurant is full. he had retorted loudy, in my face, that i so do not deserve the 10 percent service charge which had been included in the bill. I told him i was very sorry about the hang ups - which i don’t even think exist, and he just went all high and mighty when i apologised. Sometimes i wonder if guys want to see you apologise, just for the heck of it. I believe they get some form of thrill to see a girl like me in a blue apron cast her eyes downward apologetically. Oh whatever. Thinking about the whole entire episode makes me sick.

On a better note, I went to One Nite Stand on Thursday and had a pretty good time. Todd was there the night before and I was glad he didn’t mind sitting through the entire routine again. I had a pretty good laugh - Jason Wood was incredible!!! I swear he must have had some form of vocal training to be able to pull off all those impersonations. he sang some lines from Barbra Streisand, Alison Monye, Pavarotti, Sarah Brightman. That man was truly a DIVA. And the Bernie Mac looking fella   ( Miles Crawford ) had the whole sexy voice thing going on. IT WAS HILARIOUS!

OH, by the way, i bumped into Eunice while in Suntec while clutching my two personal items in hand. I won’t elaborate on what they are but i believe her bf saw them and decided to run far far away from me. Eunice is so pretty now, with the short hair.

Hmm, must meet up with her sometime soon…

I watched the movie Fearless, featuring Jet Li yesterday. had followed him to the casting at Shooting Gallery, and then we decided to grab a  quick bite at Cream before catching the show. I think the movie was quite good. Very very thrilling, very good fight scenes - i spent half the time covering my face and wincing when i saw all the painful blows. It was a very very good movie, except i had a rather noisy audience made up of gawky teenagers who just didn’t shut up. but otehr than that, please do watch it.

Then later on, we watched another movie at his place - Transporter 2.I know, its an old movie but i never caught it. had some nice nasi lemak too from JB too.

I guess the next couple of days would be me lazing around doing nothing. CNY celebrations start today and shops will be closed, the town area would be dead and i would be bored as hell.

Let’s see if i will really end up at the beach later on…

Have a good one,

sabs.

i met up with adrian today in town. It’s nice to meet old friends again. not that i missed you THAT much but i just felt like seeing a familair face…even for a while. haha, you must hate me so much for saying that.

met a really sweet girl - Steph. the three of us sat at Crossroads Marriott and bitched for an entire time. Steph’s great company. And she’s so pretty. ahah. We had Thai express for lunch and then we went to watch Memoirs of a Geisha with another friend - terence. It’s such a  great movie, this one. Gong Li is such a babe and Zhang Ziyi looked incredible in the costume. Plus Ken Watanabe is hot hot hot. I fell in love with him after watching The Last Samurai. And now watching him on the screens again makes my heart beat faster. Haha. I sound like a 12 yr old.

After the movie, Adrian and I spent some time walking around Centrepoint, cos he wanted to buy spectacles. but in the end, i was the one who kept buying stuff. That’s it. No more shopping, Sab.

And that was followed by Spinelli’s Vanilla latte and a green colored wrap which tastd really good but only for a while.

now I’m home. I know its a Friday night and i have had three people calling me to ask me out but i just don’t feel like clubbing, or chilling or drinking or just spending money.

Am going to curl up in bed now with a good book.

have a good weekend.

-sabs-

i got my nails done today. now they look nice. french tips, baby pink toenails. an extra load of makeup, tight white tops and extremely tight tapered jeans would transform me into a minah. haha.

rushed todd to the doctoc today after he freaked me out with his heart problems. thank god he’s okay. i hate anything to do with the heart…it reminds me of my dad, who also, thankfully, is doing really well. health problems just scare me to bits, that’s just it.

am stuck on bangkok trip. still have yet to confirm with R on wheteher we would be going for the rock festival. The lineup is great, Oasis, FF, Ian Brown, Stereophonics, Snow Patrol, Placebo, Maximo Park… a weekend of pure absolute mayhem? i badly wanna go and even though i can jolly well afford it, i dread the whole idea of being the only girl among a whole lotta guys. Oh well, i just need to confirm tickets and once thats done, I’ll be on my feet jumping around insanely among a crazy crowd. ehehehee.

Parents got back from malaysia today. I cooked chicken rice for them and i heard my dad liked it. Oh and did i mention that i cleaned out my room? new room for a new year, i hear you say. I’m 18 days late but its better than nothing.

And i FINALLY finished this silly book - Temporary insanity. It’s about how some silly girl can’t decide on what job to do and settle for in her life, and goes around trying every single thing that comes her way. Including the men. Sort of like me, except for the latter part. I wanna do everything. I can’t decide on anything. I’m tired of blaming it on my character as a gemini….keep telling myself that i’m still young. It still feels like 2003 to me. hahaha. wake up girl…

and its time for me to go. my brother is eyeing me. I’m using his laptop.

good thursday people.

-sabs-

the past few days have been gloomy. in every sense of the word…it’s been raining non stop, the bottom of my jeans have been perpetually wet 24/7 and my toes have been icky. It’s gross and disgusting but i love wearing slippers and heels, so i guess i gotta live with it.

sent emails to bosses and no replies. I’m beginning to feel rather left out from a lot of things…work-wise. i can ask so many people about everything but no one has answers and the only ones who do have answers just happen to be on the otehr side of the world. yes, i can call them but i keep getting into their voicemails. It’s getting frustrating.

am listening to U2 now. nothing beats U2 on a gloomy day.

have two insect bites on arms which look very very ugly. the worst thing is that i have scars from my previous fall, on the same right hand and even more scars on my right leg. i’m beginning to look like an abused person! Urgh. I’m stuck to wearing tshirts, long sleeves and long pants for now. have tossed asde sleeveless tops, capri pants and skirts for now….

But of course amidst all that gloominess,there’s that silver lining. Have been spending lots of time with someone who’s so sweet and extra special. hehehe. you know who you are.

-sabs-

today was work at TCD for like four hours. and after, i hit the town with farhana and aishah.

i had fish soup at the spot me and ernie did just a few days ago and i swear, fresh fish tastes like heaven.

anyway we spent the next few hours just basically talkjing about what to do with our lives and just sharing bits of everything. we had food and attempted to sit through a live band performance, which was sadly uninterrupted by the rain.

So it went on to more talking.

the ride home from town to cck was a long one. I had a conversation with farhana and told her almost everything i had gone through..all the troubles, all the pain. All the anger, all the sadness. It hurt a lot to bring up the past but i figured that i migh as well let it all out.

at some point, it really did make me think hard about stuff, and how i knew my future would be so different from the fairy tale life i had always sought after.

I wonder if that silly girl reads this..and if you do, I’m sure you have realised  that my life is not all easy and crazy as u think. I’m not that social butterfly or creature u imagined to be, although i know lots of people. In the end, they are acquantances, i  only have few friends, and that includes you.

okay. got to go off now. have a good weekend people. i am off to malaysia again.

-sabs-

THE LAST WEEK

My trip to KL was fun! Five days there spent with the best kind of company. Even though at times i was alone, it felt nice to be somewhere foreign and not bothered by crazy singaporeans.

Only the transport around KL was a bitch. I swear every single taxi driver there looks dodgy, ecxept for this super frail malay guy who drove me back to my hotel on the first day. He looked as though he was going to pass out from being so old. I know its mean but i really couldn’t understand what he was saying cos he already lost a lot of teeth. Oh well.

That aside i finally went back to my village in Seremban as well. Actually it was just going back home to my house in TTJ. And i realise after two yrs of not being there, nothing changed. Just that we have a few fruit trees in our garden and i realise…no more kitty cat. :(  we use to have three kitty cats but no more.

all that fun during the week of Christmas…

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THE WEEKEND

nye was a blast… i didn’t spend it with anyone i knew remotely well… i was with marie..my sister’s friend. It was in zouk, even though we had planned to MOS our way through the night with Darren Emerson. Oh well. Countdown was still a blast. I met people i hadn’t seen for a while. 

The music was excellant that night. It just felt a bit different. And it was the first time in a long long time i realise what good music does to you. It makes you dance non stop. I didn’t even drink much but my legs were on the dancefloor most of the time…hehehe.

yesterday was ritz birthday celebration. we cut the cake and had so much food. chicken wings and curry puffs and noodles and everything else in one hotel room After a while everyone went to zouk for the hiphop thing. My head was stuck near the speakers for a while, with my heartbeat pulsing to the music. But after a while it really got boring so i ended up in the hotel room playing so-called "drinking games".

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TODAY

i’m going to spend the whole evening reading. Need to grow more brain cells after the exhasuting weekend. Will be heading out to library after this. HOpe i can read at least another four books this week. I did it last week, even though i was so busy so i shouldn’t be able not to do it this week.

Till my next update…tata.