me and my stories.

okay the three words i used to title my blog is part of some advertising thing going on for a mint in the states.

anyway

today was ’sabrina has eight arms’ day. woke up at 6 am, tried to stay awake to do some work, left for work at 8 plus only to reach at 9.45 due to some traffic accident right in front of MCYS. Made me so mad for a while cos i already had a tight schedule to work with.

Everything went smoothly today. I had a lot of things to deal with…it wasn’t hard really,  just some multitasking and the time factor which made it such a challenge. Although my mind almost went as crazy as the erratic waveforms on my pc screen, i thank god the pc didn’t shut down or hung on me. phew.

the show went alright too.

met kamal my significant other at spinelli’s today. we talked and did the usual coffee, old chang kee routine. then it was HMV and then home. I wasn’t tired at all, but i forced myself to go home. I’ve finally realised that i need to rest.

so by right i shouldn’t even be here typing this in.

anyway, i’m sipping lemonade and trying to plan my day for tomorrow. The usual up for 6, out by 7? hopefully at work by 8. red alert at 10, end at 2. and more work till 4. see if i can leave earlier tomorrow to grab my cheque from the other place.

oh i’m such a busy little girl.

it’s 10:38. it’s late already. am going to put on my face mask now for fifteen minutes. treat myself to a little channelnewsasia before i pull the covers over my head.

i need sleep.

-sabs-

ps: happy birthday to cheryl and kamal dear.

i’ve been busy with new things. If you followed my life…any part of it, you would know. i have recovered from my crazy bout of flu + pms ( like what else could be even worse?) and i’ve recently discovered a new part of myself i never thought i had.

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yesterday the old man looked into my palm and told me :

• i am a born romantic.
• i’m not strong enough to be alone in life.
• i will have 2 men in my life, and i will have kids with the first.
• i am horribly impatient.
• i will be successful in life.
• i won’t fall really sick but i have to take care of my health.
• i’m a builder…a "creator". I have the ability to turn one object into something else.
• i will always worry.

he told me so much more but i can’t recall. i will put them down on this blog when i do.

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i met someone yesterday. She’s the best person you can turn to for anything. Sometimes i feel that my blood runs in her veins. Or vice versa. It sounds crazy when two people click too well.

faye and i sat down and talked at spinelli’s around town and even at indochine. I listened for most of it. She shared with me things i never expected to touch my soul. So much that i could have cried in front of you my dear girl. i know for a fact you want the best for me. Thanks for yesterday. i just needed someone to talk to, and you were the best listening ear.

hopefully our plans to go HK will follow through.

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he sent me home yesterday to my door step. that was quite pleasant. so gentlemanly. it’s been quite some time since someone would care enough to walk me up three floors to make sure i was safe. I felt slightly awkward to be honest. But thank you again.

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oh another thing. met up with rand and the whole gang recently. That was one of my best nights so far this month. Hanging around those you rarely see,  much less talk to. Rand just got back from UK and he made it so tempting to pack my bags and leave this place. We all met up to talk, only to realise that although we’ve moved forward in life, nothing much about our own selves has changed.

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and today i woke up thinking that it is time to change. i’ve tried so hard. I’ve made effort for things, that are probably worth next to nothing. I will learn. i’ll make up for all my silly thoughts.

i only have one life, so i’ll just make the most of it. we all have to anyway.

-sabs-

today i woke up feeling at an all time low. My head was about to explode because it just felt so hot and i just felt like crying because my nose was so stuck and i could barely keep my eyes open.

falling sick and pmsing is the worst thing in the world. I just wanted to go back to bed but i knew i had to get ready to work. it was still early for all that morning rush so i tried to make myself fell better. A few trips to puke in the bathroom later and my nose being comparable to a dripping tap, i smsed my colleague to tell him that i seriously couldn’t make it to work.

i popped two baby blue pills - the innocent looking ones which knock you out… one flu tablet and one multivitamin. Then i just lay down in bed and soon after i was out like a light.

When i finally woke up, i had a total of seven missed calls, and 4 smses. MOst of them from the office…urgh i felt so bad for not coming to work. My phone was on silent and i didn’t realise how urgently pple from the office were looking for me. Shit man.

so anyway i smsed everyone back..and i think they won’t forgive me for some time since i made them run around like crazy beings.

that aside, i just ate another two pills…and i pray by tomorrow i will be well enough.

back to bed.

-sabrina-

this month has been a total bummer. for me and a lot of the people around me. I’m beginning to think that this is like..THE month of change. Some of my friends have quit doing everything, and then there are those who started dabbling in things they never thought they would have. We all hang out together and drive ourselves crazy over insane amounts of coffee ; occasionally indulging in cheesecake and chocolates.

My life has become more simpler, and tougher at the same time. The challenges i’m experiencing are those within myself. The challenge to make an effort. To give my best all the time. To wake up in the morning and tell myself that everything is worth it. That i will be okay even though i barely slept four hours.

you know, re-reading the entire paragraph makes me feel like a lazy fat ass.

haha.

and now for the first time tonight after a long long while, i will be able to sleep before the clock strikes midnight.

goodnight and love you too.

-sabs-

i haven’t been around and i won’t be around much for now.

what’s new:

• am down with fever
• am struggling with morning madness
• am trying to fit in

i’ve just started walking down this road which i find so familiar yet i still feel lost. those whom i want to turn to won’t be able to help me forever so i’m just on my own for now. trying. i won’t give up yet.

i’m so sick. i hate fever cos when i have fever, i get cough. and when i cough, my voice disappears. and when my voice disappears i might as well forget about working.

aaron has been sending me positive smses. Little notes of encouragement which perk me up at odd times of the day. I haven’t replied your msgs, i know. How nasty of me. I hope God watches out for you. You’ve been a really great friend. And you deserve the best.

and now i shall take a few more pills.

to la la land.

-sabs-

i haven’t been around and i won’t be around much for now.

what’s new:

• am down with fever
• am struggling with morning madness
• am trying to fit in

i’ve just started walking down this road which i find so familiar yet i still feel lost. those whom i want to turn to won’t be able to help me forever so i’m just on my own for now. trying. i won’t give up yet.

i’m so sick. i hate fever cos when i have fever, i get cough. and when i cough, my voice disappears. and when my voice disappears i might as well forget about working.

aaron has been sending me positive smses. Little notes of encouragement which perk me up at odd times of the day. I haven’t replied your msgs, i know. How nasty of me. I hope God watches out for you. You’ve been a really great friend. And you deserve the best.

and now i shall take a few more pills.

to la la land.

-sabs-

two things:

i just watched pride and prejudice. again.

i am addicted to prune juice and pitted prunes for some reason.

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today is a lovely day. It’s hot, which makes it an excellent day to swim or tan. It also makes me feel lazy and sleepy at the same time.

i can’t wait for later. will be catching up with my girls whom i haven’t really seen for a long long time.

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time to go.

-sabs-

been spending past two days meeting new people, and starting a new life elsewhere. It feels strange, the feeling of having to wake up early to beat morning traffic, experiencing the constant jostle on the bus for an empty seat.

Actually, it just feels strange to be part of a common workforce, although my line would not even be comparable to what others have to deal with out there.

tomorrow is your last day, my new friend. Good luck and i know i’ll see you around. Thanks for guiding me for the past 2 days.

anyway, i’ve decided that i’ll just give it another shot. If i don’t i know for sure i will hate myself for letting go. I’ve decided to have a Plan B now. ( finally, i realise the important of having back ups) And that’s mainly due to my age, and the competitive work force. As is, i am lacking, behind in terms of certification but screw that for now. I just discovered that someone who is 18 yrs old this year is an assistant condo manager. That just makes my heart skip a beat.

After work was spent yet another day with Adrian and knowing how bad we can be around each other ( not in THAT sense of course), we spent the whole time eating, complaining, whining, eating again, walking to relieve ourselves of all that gluttony and then a coffee to make our lives complete.

Bought 3 cds today even though am officially broke as HELL. Soon enough, you shall see me along the streets juggling oranges while balancing plates on my pretty head at the same time.

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And as for you, my dear, i really miss you a lot. Things seem somewhat different and i can only blame it on fate.

i just hope everything will work out soon.

-sabs-