me and my stories.

its sunny skies again but let’s not all speak too soon.

I will leave for town in half an hour, and buy a small present for myself. I need to get out by myself today, and make myself feel slightly better. I’m pmsing, so its not exactly a good idea to be around me. heh.

went out last night to the end of the world ( in this case, Sengkang) to an open house thing. It was my honey’s very good friend from sec 1, who recently got married and had just moved into the 17th floor of a HDB flat. It looks like a freakin condo, thats all i can say. And he had blue neon lights in the living room. Supposedly for better movie quality?! But it made me think of the clubs.

The girls had a night out yesterday and i had to give it a miss. Although there was no way for me to make it, i did feel a bit bad. It’s like a last get together ritual before school starts. Gotta make it up to them man.

And talking about old friends. I found someone on friendster. Actually he found me. It was this guy from my primary school that i used to have an itsy bitsy crush on. He was this tall fair malay boy that even some of my chinese schoolgirls were crazy about .

Goodness, i’m thinking about my primary 1 days now. i remember my first day of school, there was this german kid in the class, he had nice blond hair, but the next day he was gone. And then i made friends with Suzanna, Jinfeng, Agnes???

hmm. memories.

Its the second last day of 2006 already. Time passes by so fast…

sabby

thanks to miss keidi lim, i have decided to go online and take part in every survey imaginable. I got bored, eventually and decided to go all hippy, and take part in a free online tarot card reading. Scary. I chose six cards, after ’shuffling’ the pack seven times. And this is the result - my life, and my life in 2007.

How you feel about yourself now?

The Emperor

Logic. Order. Leadership. Power maintained through rigid control. May represent a person in authority; if so one must either play by their rules or leave the situation.

What you most want at this moment?

The Hanged Man

Delays. Suspense. Inability to act. Feeling that "one’s hands are tied" where an important situation is concerned. A need to relinquish self-will. Liberation follows surrender.

Your fears

The Tower

Shake-up. Revolution. "Wake-up call." Sudden change of circumstance. Disaster. Dramatic revelation. Shocking news. Sudden illumination or realization.

What is going on for you ?

Death

Radical change. Irreversible loss. Renouncing old ways. Breaking old patterns. Endings. This card speaks of endings which are necessary, making new beginnings possible.

What is going against you ?

The Moon

Illusion. False, vague or confusing information. Wishful thinking may be clouding one’s judgement. Dreams, psychic impressions, messages from the subconscious mind.

Outcome

The Wheel of Fortune

Luck. Chance works in one’s favor. Outside factors improve the situation, bringing new or better options. Make the most of what Fortune offers, but do not expect to get by on luck alone.

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for a mmt, i must say, some of the cards speak the truth. The whole thing about new beginnings and what not. Thing is, i’m not supposed to be believing in stuff like this.

My general horoscope also says that 2007 will be the year of mental activity. That’s more like it, since i am studying again next year. But then it also says that mental activity is likely to cause emotional and physical stress, as there are counters into the unknown. Relationships that are strong, will be challenged, but emerge stronger towards the end of the year.

i like this part of the horoscope :

Geminis born in 83 will face difficulty and stress throughout the year, but life will be balanced throughout. Ensure that you stay healthy - mentally and physically, by taking breaks with loved ones. Holidays and ‘time-outs’ will be appropriate, if not once every two months, or once every four months.

More reason for me to go holiday????? but must balance the load ( study and party?)  properly. heh heh.

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okay enough for now. time to stop getting excited over random horoscopes and plant my feet back on earth.

sabby

its been raining non stop. i’m hoping tomorrow will be a clear and sunny day, so that i can

• do my laundry
• step out of the house, and not worry about getting my feet wet
• not mistake a 106 bus for a 700 bus, like i did earlier in the day - god knows how THAT happened.

anyway, its PMSing time, and i’m having moodswings like crazy. It doesn’t help taht my sister is also having cravings of the worse kind. We’re like two dogs in the house, hunting for food. My sister and her Arnotts MInt Choc Cookies, me and my " i wanna stuff everything down my throat syndrome"

okay, stop thinking about food now, i need to sleep.

sabby

yesterday at 11.42 pm, the honey buns and i were on the phone. He was sleepy, and i was just chatting away when he said that he really wanted to go sleep.

him : i really wanna talk for another 20 mins but i am just too sleepy

me : another 20 minutes? wait another 20 mins for what

him : to wish you happy anniversary.

me : (stunned silence for at least 3 secs)

i had completely forgotten. And even though i did, it made me smile for a bit cos i realised i was so lucky to have such a sweet person in my life. It felt good to be loved like that.

merry xmas to everyone. My head is in two minds today, don’t ask me what it means. I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting for the past few weeks. Spending alone time, and thinking things through. I’m trying to see the positive in my life right now.

i decided on something recently too.

I want to be more serious next year. I’ll be 24, and i’ll be a better person. I’ll learn new things and not fool around anymore. I’ll be happy but a totally different dimension, i guess.

I know from the way it sounds, it doesn’t sound like me anymore.

But maybe this will be the new and better me.

I must move forward with my life. Must keep up. Must.

sabby.

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and hopefully the lineup stays…

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keidi.razak.fiq and me. ONZ.

special thanks to miss keidi lim, future special education teacher and hero of the week.

you saved my boyfriend’s life man. You, Rachel and the kids.

I’m so thankful to have a friend like you. What goes around, comes around and i’m sure God has great things coming your way.

faith!!! and must maintain!!!

love, sabby

I am back from the three day chalet.

keidi.sonia.florence.michelle.eric.razak.taufiq.sera.khai.mark.juan.mus.rizal.allan. becky. kristal and friends. and everyone else who came.

thanks for making the chalet such a fun event. Each and every one of you. I don’t think we’ve had so much fun in a long long time.

Pictures up soon.

sabby

today i had to work back to back. Lunch at TCD, then radio and then back at TCD to manage a function. It was crazy as hell. Got home at 3 am. An extended Xmas party for the Irish and Scottish folks, who ended the night waving their byebyes and ‘terima-kasih’-ing their way out the door.

It was tiring. But tired is good.

On the way from SPH to TCD though, i was thinking. Thinking if i made the right decisions, on whether everthing was worth it. I must say, when H announced it on air, i crumpled in my seat for a  wee bit. It’s one of those mmts where you don’t want to acknowledge till someone tells it back to you.

So yes, Thursday will be my last day.

This is indeed a very special year for me, the end of 2006 and the beginning of 2007.

I’m ending and changing a lot of things in my life, things i’ve done for years, for somethign completely new and foreign.

I’m starting over again. And i hope God will give me strength.

Sabby

i’m back form my KL trip. It was good. I had fun.

I’ll miss waking up in a nice soft bed, having 2 hour breakfasts, coming home to a clean room, fresh towels everyday, going out of the door and not meeting anyone while walking down the streets.

I bought a lot of things this time round. My honey picked out at least half of my new shoes and i got myself an AllBlacks jerseyyyyy. Lotion, food, more clothes etc etc.

It was a good break.

back to normal life again.

sabrina